I’ve had a crazy year and it’s involved a lot of changes and new adventures, some really fun stuff and some really scary stuff. It’s been up and down – mostly up. It’s provided me with the chance to think about what I really want in life and what my goals are. These changes have had a huge impact on my love affair with life and how I want to spend my time. They’ve also reminded me how lucky I am to have the support, unconditional love, and companionship of my amazing husband.
A couple things I’ve learned:
I’ll never stop planning or trying to figuring it out.
I’ve accepted the fact that I’m a personal growth junkie.
However, after a burst of inspiration and motivation following the World Domination Summit in Portland I felt really burned out and unsure of where I wanted to go with my blog, my personal brand, and all these amazing ideas I had swirling around in my head. I have some big dreams — like some really big ass dreams — and I know that one day I’ll achieve some of them, in their own way, but right now I’m in a really good place…
And I just now figured that out.
Life is pretty damn awesome. I have a job that I absolutely love because I’m challenged everyday and get the freedom that is so important to me.
My husband is amazing in every way and I love the city of Seattle as my new home. I have friends and family that love and support me — even though I miss them a lot. I’m happy, healthy, fulfilled, passionate, and pretty much the most content I’ve ever been in my life.
This is a first for me.
But I’ve decided to embrace it. To allow myself to enjoy this moment of goodness, this moment of contentment that my personality rarely lets me enjoy.
My whole life I’ve spent striving for the next gold star, the next step up the ladder, the next moment of achievement. I’ve always wanted to be better, faster, smarter, and planning my next attack on life. Yes, I’m a passionate, driven gal who sometimes doesn’t know when to “turn it off.”
Well, the last few weeks I’ve been able to turn it off for once. I’ve stopped planning what I should be doing and obsessing over extra curricular classes I should be taking. I’ve stopped obsessing at the stack of books I still need to crack open and I’ve allowed myself to focus on the two things that are making me most happy and fulfilled right now… my current job and my free time exploring this beautiful region with my husband.
For now… today at least… that is enough. I am enough.
When is enough for you? When do you know it’s time to just be in the now and stop obsessing over the future?